...expending tremendous energy merely to be normal...

 Jessie Boswell


“I am the most tired woman in the world. 
I am tired when I get up. Life requires an effort I cannot make. 
Please give me that heavy book. I need to put something heavy 
like that on top of my head.
(...)
 I know that I am dead. As soon as I utter 
a phrase my sincerity dies, 
becomes a lie whose coldness chills me. 
Don't say anything, because I see that you 
understand me, and I am afraid of your 
understanding. I have such a fear of finding 
another like myself, and such a desire to find one!

Lucian Freud

And then when I start to sink again, 
I do it so slowly and live 
in a world of silence in multiple dimensions.

Stefan-zsaitsits

You see we're tired, my heart and I.

    We dealt with books, we trusted men,

    And in our own blood drenched the pen,

As if such colours could not fly.

    We walked too straight for fortune's end,

    We loved too true to keep a friend ;

At last we're tired, my heart and I.





Seth Alverson


Gerhard Richter



I am so utterly lonely, but I also have such a fear 
that my isolation be broken through, and I no longer 
be the head and ruler of my universe. I am in great 
terror of your understanding by which you penetrate 
into my world; and then I stand revealed 
and I have to share my kingdom with you.


Leon Spilliaert


Marcel van Eeden

Mikołaj Obrycki

Luke Anthony Bacon




Goran Knezevic




Sam Szafron


Alexander Kindlen







Guido Buganza






Carlos Morago


Kathy Foster

Yet who complains ? My heart and I ?

    In this abundant earth no doubt

    Is little room for things worn out :

Disdain them, break them, throw them by

    And if before the days grew rough

    We once were loved, used, — well enough,

I think, we've fared, my heart and I.

Stephen Rose


Indrapramit Roy











 title- Albert Camus- "Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal."

1. and 4. - Anaïs Nin
2. line - A.Solomon 
3. and 5. from a pem by Elisabeth Barrett Browning