diary of a paranoid

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diary of a paranoid

buys  a heater, is happy for 5 min.
has visions of newspaper titles house burned down due to malfunctioning heater.
thinks - 'it was way to cheap to work properly'
day 1
opens the package to take a deep breath of heavy plastic fumes
(feels lightheaded - knows it's psychosomatic)
reads all 5 pages of instructions in all 3 languages including german , especially german , trusts them more...
turns on the heater - instructions mention an odor for the first time turning on, room must be properly ventilated.
(gets worried for room might not be properly ventilated)
odor gets unbearable (opens the window, gets cold. closes the window turns the heater of, freezes yet another night)
day 2
heater still produces heavy odors, but it's warm.
(worries about stuff getting caught on fire, removes all the books and notebooks and anything papery in radius.
gets headache - is sure its from toxic fumes.
freezes another night)
day 5
heater is accepted as a warmth giver.
(worries every time she passes by it with wet hands and that's all the time cuz she washes her hands all the time.)
worries: 
a) braking the warmth giver
b) electrocuting herself
c) burning the whole place down to ashes
day 6
another headache

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- and this is how i imagined it to be...